First of all, I never though of myself as one to start a blog. Blogs just seemed so outdated for my use, like a silly thing where teenagers vent their feelings of universal “blah” or a thing to go on about how many hours they spent at a mall picking out makeup. But today, I finally seen the intelligence I have ignored for so long in blog use and a reason of attraction to even the intellectuals. It’s also kind of fun to read a side of family members and friends that you don’t always see in person. Get into their head, it’s interesting…. Anyway, why would Gemini be suddenly interested in bloging? For research and development process recording of course! I am constantly finding new methods to create my flash sites/animations/etc. and new breakable limitations in which I spend hours trying to crack. Damn, thinking about this makes me always wonder “Why can’t I ever be this motivated when working for someone else?!” I mean, there was only one employer in my life that I actually did work hard for. Unfortunately, my efforts were still not good enough because of two factors: 1: The hiring and promotion of a new Supervisor; and 2: The bulk of my work (creative writing) was slowly decending into repetition of words, making me loose my touch after writing about the same products for nearly a year. All of the sudden, my stuff was not good enough anymore; not to mention that when more pressure was placed on this supervisor of mine, she became intolerant of everything and expected absolute perfection from this run-dry creative writer. My ability to design web pages and graphics was unable to save me since I was only assigned the web and graphics work when the primary workers were too busy to work on them. After loosing the only job I have ever truly respected, finding another professional design company proved to be more difficult than I have hoped. My resume’ was ignored by the design companies for so long that it has become a necessity for me to go back to the pathetic kinds of jobs in which I must compeate against the local teenagers for. I had hoped that I seen the last of these jobs when I left a movie theater position in 2004. Now it’s 2006 and have the feeling that I will have to start from the beginning…yet again. Sad really, but there are plenty enough Americans going through this kind of thing right now, so I have no real room for anything but statements because complaints are useless to their furthest extent. In conclusion: rather than make a blog of my personal complaints, I will most likely use this for personal statements and logging of my progress into finally reaching my true goal: self employment.
Later,
~Gemini